Cry of a Mother

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Half of the time, I smiled,
For the better half, I raised him.
I painted his future with fine strokes,
I put amber where light was dim.

What went wrong?
I wish I could answer, I wish I knew.
I wish my flesh and blood,
Gave me a better adieu.

Till the last tear they will shed in grief,
I'll remain by their side.
Weeping in silent tears,
I'm shaking from inside.

Hold me tight, as tight it can be,
Though my soul is trying to break free.

*This poem is written from the perspective of Nancy Lanza, Mother of Adam Lanza, who killed 26 people, including 20 kids in Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newport, Connecticut, after killing his Mother.

Location: Hackensack, NJ, USA

Comments

  1. Sankara Jayanth SDecember 17, 2012 at 10:24 AM

    Stunning and genuine emotions!!! Nothing else to say..

    May their souls rest in peace.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 18, 2012 at 10:25 AM

      May they rest in peace. Thanks for reading Jayanth.

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  2. SangrywordsDecember 17, 2012 at 10:27 AM

    Saru - truly touched my heart ... the line where you say "gave me a better adieu", gave me a shiver down the spine ... How true of a mother's feel across the universe ..

    My heartfelt condolences to all the families. May god bless them peace in heaven!

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 18, 2012 at 10:27 AM

      Being a mother is a tough job and when someone faces such kind of a situation, seems like God is being extra harsh to them.

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  3. Rahul BhatiaDecember 17, 2012 at 10:28 AM

    Very poignant and heart wrenching, Saru! May such incidents be never repeated again.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 18, 2012 at 10:33 AM

      I agree Sir, such events should never be repeated.

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  4. An Apel a DayDecember 17, 2012 at 10:34 AM

    This makes me want to cry!

    You should read this blog post: http://anarchistsoccermom.blogspot.com/2012/12/thinking-unthinkable.html It's not written by me. It's written by a mom that has a mentally ill child. So heartbreaking!

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 18, 2012 at 10:34 AM

      I read that post, at times, God is extra harsh with some Mothers. This event makes us all cry...

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  5. AnonymousDecember 17, 2012 at 10:40 AM

    I'm sure all mothers are shaking their heads and wondering what went wrong. Read We have to talk about Kevin by Lionel Shriver!

    Heartbreaking piece of writing.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 18, 2012 at 10:37 AM

      Nope, I will read it. This is such a difficult situation. Thanks for reading.

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  6. Harsha (@CriticLeo)December 17, 2012 at 10:58 AM

    Ah! That was hard.

    'I wish my flesh and blood,
    Gave me a better adieu.' - Esp these lines were so poignant.

    May God Bless their families!

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  7. IrfanuddinDecember 17, 2012 at 10:59 AM

    what to say.....such things can disturb any human.....

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  8. Anupama TripathiDecember 17, 2012 at 11:05 AM

    Very touching ....!!

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  9. TaniaDecember 17, 2012 at 11:16 AM

    Ah! Very poignant..

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  10. AnonymousDecember 17, 2012 at 11:28 AM

    So sad! Her state and the state of every parent involved. Very apt lines.

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  11. UnknownDecember 17, 2012 at 12:35 PM

    Who knows what went on in her mind just before her son pulled the trigger. So very heartbreaking!

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  12. Ankit MalhotraDecember 17, 2012 at 1:23 PM

    heartbreaking peace of writting
    amazing post...

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  13. Writefully YoursDecember 17, 2012 at 2:26 PM

    This was an extremely unfortunate incident. We don't know what to blame- the gun laws or the lack of treatment and acceptance for the disabled. The heart cries for the innocent kids but in someway sympathizes with the killer as well, as he was just 20!

    You captured both the emotions perfectly. And even though my heart is heavy, I loved the post.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 18, 2012 at 11:08 AM

      That is something we all missed. He was 20 and mentally ill. Hope we have better gun laws in every country.

      Thanks for reading and glad this piece touched you.

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  14. RachitDecember 17, 2012 at 3:18 PM

    This piece took me far away and deep inside. Amazing! :)

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  15. Brad DuggDecember 17, 2012 at 8:27 PM

    AWESOME SAR AWESOME I LOVED IT

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  16. Alka GurhaDecember 17, 2012 at 9:58 PM

    The first few lines suggested where your thoughts were coming from. Poignant.

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  17. Krishna/കൃഷ്ണDecember 17, 2012 at 11:32 PM

    painful...

    thanks

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  18. Found In FolsomDecember 18, 2012 at 12:20 AM

    pitiful..painful..pathetic..couldn't think of anything else after I heard the news..

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 18, 2012 at 12:49 PM

      Yeah, my feelings exactly when I saw the News at JFK.

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  19. Anshul GautamDecember 18, 2012 at 12:45 AM

    Painful emotions, you painted with gentle care.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 19, 2012 at 8:12 AM

      Thank you Anshul. I wish we don't get to hear more of such incidents in the future.

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  20. monicaDecember 18, 2012 at 1:59 AM

    touched..!!
    a very unfortunate incidence..
    may god shower its blessings over the departed souls...!

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 19, 2012 at 8:20 AM

      Very unfortunate. I hope we have some strict Gun Laws everywhere.

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  21. SoniaDecember 18, 2012 at 3:54 AM

    Painful.. Very unfortunate incident.. Your words prick my heart..

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  22. RamakrishnanDecember 18, 2012 at 4:47 AM

    Well conveyed the mothers pain & sorrow ! To the 26 people killed - May their souls RIP

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  23. NoopurDecember 18, 2012 at 5:49 AM

    Now I can understand, how a mother feels...
    Noopur
    http://apparitionofmine.blogspot.in/

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  24. BikramDecember 18, 2012 at 6:20 AM

    so sad about what happened how can someone do this , why did GOD not stop this person .. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


    Bikram's

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 19, 2012 at 2:46 PM

      Seriously, why God didn't do anything? It's so heart breaking to hear such incidents.

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  25. Saru SinghalDecember 18, 2012 at 10:50 AM

    Yeah and as a women I feel sorry for what a Mother has to go through...

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  26. Manjulika PramodDecember 18, 2012 at 1:28 PM

    A truly sad and tearful incident.. U have expressed it so well and I am sure the mother must be feeling the same way.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 19, 2012 at 2:47 PM

      Thanks for liking the expression. It is indeed a very sad incident.

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  27. BhaktacharyyaDecember 18, 2012 at 10:01 PM

    once again..a true poet with her true feelings..
    may God heal the pain

    Thanks

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 19, 2012 at 2:49 PM

      May God heal their pain, btw have you seen the interview of the parents whose kids died? They were so calm and forgiving. I was so touched and moved after watching it.

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  28. roopzDecember 18, 2012 at 11:05 PM

    Nice words...

    Here is something for you. Thanks for your support

    http://voiceofavillagegirl.blogspot.in/2012/12/my-favorite-bloggers-of-2012.html

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 19, 2012 at 2:50 PM

      That was such a sweet and special mention. Thanks a ton for the honor. :)

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  29. AkankshaDecember 19, 2012 at 12:17 AM

    Touched my heart and pricked me from inside. :(

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 19, 2012 at 2:51 PM

      It is such a heart-wrenching incident Akanksha. :(

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  30. raDecember 19, 2012 at 2:22 AM

    so very painful ..

    how can someone do this?

    why didn't he think twice before pulling that trigger ? :-(

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 19, 2012 at 2:52 PM

      He was not mentally stable but we all are left with many questions. Life is so harsh at times...

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  31. AnonymousDecember 19, 2012 at 4:18 AM

    heart touching one mam :) :)

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  32. Ganga Bharani (GB)December 19, 2012 at 4:33 AM

    very touchy and well expressed!

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  33. ekta khetanDecember 19, 2012 at 4:59 AM

    Poignant!

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  34. Gayatri SoniDecember 19, 2012 at 9:25 AM

    It's very disturbing! don't know why all this happens??? :(

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  35. Ruchi JainDecember 19, 2012 at 10:19 AM

    Self explainatory..

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  36. Zari(Nilam)December 19, 2012 at 10:49 AM

    Touchy....

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  37. - N -December 19, 2012 at 12:45 PM

    Wonderful!
    Its hard to imagine what went inside the head of the two.
    Weird that the toughest thing to think about is what other person might have thought.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 19, 2012 at 3:21 PM

      Yeah, however when I was watching the interview of the families of the victim, I was shocked to see the forgiveness in their hearts.

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  38. A.Sankara Narayanan, CEH, CCNA, CCNA(Security), MCPDecember 19, 2012 at 12:53 PM

    heart touching...

    http://sankar-information-security.blogspot.com

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  39. VandanaDecember 19, 2012 at 1:54 PM

    b'fully written.. A woman whose kid is not well... is already so emotinaly broken!

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  40. D.NambiarDecember 19, 2012 at 4:06 PM

    She had a very sad end. I wonder what went on in her mind when she was being attacked. I wish she never had that many guns at home. May she rest in peace and may those lovely children and the other staff too rest in peace.

    Nice one, Saru.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 20, 2012 at 2:47 PM

      I can't understand why people keep so many guns at home, we surely need better Gun Laws. May they rest in peace.

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  41. Woman'n'BeyondDecember 19, 2012 at 9:52 PM

    What she did to deserve such tragic end. Nothing, absolutely nothing can justify such a crime. Peace to her and all the 26 people.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 20, 2012 at 2:49 PM

      Yes, nothing at all can justify this. Such a sad incidence.

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  42. AnonymousDecember 19, 2012 at 11:37 PM

    I really liked this post Saru!!

    :)

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  43. ZephyrDecember 19, 2012 at 11:56 PM

    Experienced the feelings dripping from the words, Saru. Sometimes it is not just the values the parents impart, but a lot of things besides that is responsible for such psychotic and perverse acts.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 20, 2012 at 2:55 PM

      I agree, something are just out of our control and understanding. Thanks for reading Ma'am.

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  44. joshi danielDecember 20, 2012 at 12:42 AM

    touching!

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  45. DebopamDecember 20, 2012 at 1:23 AM

    I am totally spellbound.... Wonderful creation......

    http://debnature.blogspot.in

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  46. provoqdDecember 20, 2012 at 2:47 AM

    Hi Saru,

    Lovely, heartfelt perspective of the mother of the killer.
    "I wish my flesh and blood, gave me a better adieu"
    The line reminds me of the parting between Richard Parker and Pi from the movie Life of Pi. A very touching line and moment.
    Loved reading this post.

    Keep up the good work

    Regards

    Jay
    http://road-to-sanitarium.blogspot.in/

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 20, 2012 at 3:01 PM

      There are many heart-warming and heart-breaking things in this world which we remember. Thanks for stopping by Jay.

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  47. CYNOSUREDecember 20, 2012 at 5:07 AM

    one of the best I've ever heard in my life till date...and i literally mean it...wonderfully crafted and penned down ma'am...:)

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 20, 2012 at 3:03 PM

      Glad to know that this one turns out to be a beautiful read for you. Thank you so much for your heart warming words.

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  48. ArtiDecember 20, 2012 at 6:16 AM

    What pain she must have endured. Incidents like these are simply so sad.

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  49. Sri ValliDecember 20, 2012 at 6:51 AM

    Got tears in my eyes while reading! Touching poem Saru!

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 20, 2012 at 3:05 PM

      Oh! The entire episode is heart-wrenching Valli.

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  50. AnonymousDecember 20, 2012 at 7:05 AM

    Very different perspective Saru ! When kids turn out this way, a mother's sorrow can only be imagined.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 20, 2012 at 3:08 PM

      True, we can't even imagine what she might have gone through. Thanks for reading.

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  51. Tomichan MatheikalDecember 20, 2012 at 9:05 AM

    "Hold me tight"

    I wish every mother could do that.

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  52. AnonymousDecember 20, 2012 at 11:52 AM

    So moving. No mother would want to go through this!

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  53. Dark KnightDecember 20, 2012 at 12:04 PM

    Heartbreaking and moving poem. Well done Saru!

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  54. Ritesh AgarwalDecember 20, 2012 at 12:28 PM

    truly emotional and tear-jerking....well done

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  55. Afshan ShaikDecember 20, 2012 at 12:37 PM

    The humanity levels hav sublimed
    morals have become 0
    world has gone to mad hounds
    *FEEL HELPLESS*

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 20, 2012 at 3:20 PM

      Me too, I feel very helpless and now I don't read the morning paper or News Site.

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  56. PanchaliDecember 20, 2012 at 10:23 PM

    A heart breaking piece, Saru. Am numb with sadness. What kind of demons exist in the garb of 'human beings'. So well penned.

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 21, 2012 at 7:52 AM

      This case is little different from what we hear often, this guy was mentally ill and there was not enough help to him while growing up. Thanks for reading and a wonderful comment.

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  57. BGTDecember 21, 2012 at 1:42 AM

    The incident was shocking to say the least. Not only for those who died, but for their loved ones and also for the family of the killer. What went wrong? I guess no one will ever come to know..

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 21, 2012 at 7:54 AM

      No one will ever come to know the actual truth, we will all build our own hypothesis. Such a heart-wrenching incident and today is its one week anniversary. :(

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  58. My Unfinished LifeDecember 21, 2012 at 11:26 AM

    tears thats all i have...heart wrenching..this and the gangrape incident makes me question the kind of world i live in!!

    http://www.myunfinishedlife.com/

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 21, 2012 at 12:46 PM

      Seriously, all such incidences make us wonder about the sanctity of the world we live in. Sigh!

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  59. sathishDecember 21, 2012 at 12:44 PM

    poignant...
    was missing you quite sometime..

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 21, 2012 at 12:47 PM

      Glad to know that someone misses my work. Thanks for reading and a heart-warming comment.

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  60. Chetan MaheshwariDecember 22, 2012 at 11:23 PM

    the poems that you right on social causes should be used in the protests or incidents or in magazines to help people understand the gravity of the situation...

    nicely written

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 25, 2012 at 3:52 PM

      Glad to read your comment, it is very encouraging. I wish more people attain peace and there is less crime in the world.

      Thanks for reading Chetan. :)

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  61. Akshay Kumar GDecember 24, 2012 at 2:17 AM

    OMG! I am so so sorry, Saru. Not sure how I missed this. :(

    A beautiful and poignant post from the perspective of the mother. I was so devastated when I heard this news, how can someone even think of killing their own mother and so many innocent children? I get so disturbed if I start to even think about it. But is the mother partly to be blamed in this incident for being a 'gun enthusiast'? Well America seriously need to take a re-look at their gun laws. Such incidents are happening way too often. :(

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 25, 2012 at 3:55 PM

      I agree, US need strict gun laws. It's a heart wrenching incident, to say the least. Life is beyond understanding at times. And you don't need to be sorry for not reading, our relationship is beyond this blog. :)

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  62. RajDecember 25, 2012 at 5:58 PM

    Indeed a cry that pierces the heart and the soul. A heart wrenching rendition and a tribute to all the children this world is going to miss so dearly and also that poor mother who would have received the biggest and most devastating heart burn. The world these days is filled with so much sadness. :(

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 26, 2012 at 8:27 AM

      Yes, there is so much sadness and it is leading to anger...Sad indeed!!!

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  63. Niyati MavinkurveDecember 26, 2012 at 4:19 AM

    My first time here and wow! What a post. I am touched!!! Indeed the world is filled with a lot of sadness :(

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    1. Saru SinghalDecember 26, 2012 at 8:30 AM

      Yes, we need some serious changes. Don't know what the world is becoming...

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  64. Anunoy SamantaDecember 26, 2012 at 9:05 AM

    the background itself is too touchy for me to reflect... well written Saru!
    and Merry Christmas :-)

    Regards,
    Anunoy Samanta
    -------------------------------
    http://imakemytrip.blogspot.com

    http://just4suzan.blogspot.com

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  65. Subhrashis AdhikariDecember 29, 2012 at 1:05 PM

    you never know what was wrong...what lead up to the point that made him kill so many people.... sad ...

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  66. Ankita February 6, 2013 at 8:43 AM

    That was really an unfortunate incident.. the poem is quite moving

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    1. Saru SinghalFebruary 6, 2013 at 10:44 AM

      It was, I was at JFK airport and when I saw it on TV, I couldn't believe it. Thanks for reading dear.

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