Why am I a modern day Meera?

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Whenever I try to write something about you, I fail. You are not my ex. You are not my friend. You are a heartbreak that I never allow to heal. You've been special that way ever since I met you. Remember the first online chat we had. With our fake profile pictures, quirky usernames, we were trying to hide our real identity. Fortunately, our true-selves were reflected in the short sarcastic sentences we typed. I knew, you were my type! However, I was not. And that makes me curse the destiny. Why God, why?

You were the missing piece that fitted perfectly with the jarred edges of my heart. I wanted our relationship to grow. It grew too. We had a label-less relation. We could tell everything to each other. We could go missing from each other's lives with no explanation. We could jump in and carry on as if nothing changed. Well, nothing could change - no man was man enough to take your place in your absence! You were the only one who understood me the way I wanted. You were the only man to arouse me with short pauses on the telephone. You were the only man who was a part of my every fantasy. Actually, you still are. Twelve years and you can still rock my world with a simple reply on my Facebook status. The forlorn lover in me tries to decipher the hidden meaning of your comments. If that's insane, so be it!

I would rather live my moments of craziness than let the maturity snatch away one real happiness I have. You are the pain that brings joy. You are a joy that is a lifelong agony. You are one chapter of my life that is abridged. Abridged, not complete. So, if someone wants to write an unrequited love story, ours should be the one. Not that it would be the best. But because if being a writer, I can't write it, someone should untangle the emotions and write my love story for me. Only then, I would know - Why am I a modern day Meera?

Yours truly,

Comments

  1. Writefully YoursNovember 1, 2016 at 7:28 AM

    That's a unique take on modern relationships. Well done, Meera :)

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  2. Kala RaviNovember 2, 2016 at 1:01 AM

    That was loaded! Unrequited love, a love that has no strings, no tags, no expectations....beautifully done Saru! Hum to ho gaye magan!

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  3. UnknownNovember 2, 2016 at 1:55 AM

    Loved it totally, completely. The subtle yet so intense romance filled my soul with a joy. Great work Saru.

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  4. BikramNovember 2, 2016 at 8:17 AM

    ooh romantic... God bless you BOTH saru... :)

    Bikram's

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  5. AmitNovember 2, 2016 at 10:45 AM

    Extremely beautiful compositon.

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  6. Rahul BhatiaNovember 2, 2016 at 12:02 PM

    Good one Saru... very out of box:)

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  7. Found In FolsomNovember 2, 2016 at 3:52 PM

    :) Was smiling by the end..

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  8. anindyaNovember 2, 2016 at 9:52 PM

    Let me write this love story. This is a super piece. I guess every reader reading this will have some memories in flashback. I had so many

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    1. Saru SinghalNovember 21, 2016 at 5:10 PM

      That's so good to know. Thanks for reading, Anindya!

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  9. RachnaNovember 2, 2016 at 11:15 PM

    Wow! This one was seathing with emotion. There was a rawness in this which cut through. Well done. This piece resonated.

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  10. VinithaNovember 3, 2016 at 10:35 AM

    Felt like this is a page out of a novel. I was able to feel the emotions here, Saru. Too good!

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  11. Lady FiNovember 3, 2016 at 12:32 PM

    Such lovely writing.

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  12. Jyotirmoy SarkarNovember 3, 2016 at 11:32 PM

    Very nice presentation. loved it.

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  13. Ranjana's craft blogNovember 3, 2016 at 11:47 PM

    Bonding, yet no bondage . No strings attached. Only you can write like this Saru. Reading this was like seeing an art...God bless you.

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    1. Saru SinghalNovember 21, 2016 at 5:45 PM

      That's one of the most beautiful comment ever, Ranjana.

      Can't thank you enough! <3

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  14. AmiNovember 4, 2016 at 12:45 AM

    Deep...there is a meaning to every sentence here...Interesting and thought provoking. Well written.

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  15. UnknownNovember 4, 2016 at 3:46 AM

    Your soulful highlights on modern relationships actually made me smile at the end. Beautiful dear :)

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  16. Anmol RawatNovember 4, 2016 at 3:53 AM

    That's the truth of modern day relationships. I think it can be a perfect preface to an exciting YA novel :)

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  17. Roma Gupta SinhaNovember 4, 2016 at 6:10 AM

    You were the missing piece that fitted perfectly with the jarred edges of my heart...Aahh Great work Saru, struck the right chords :)

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  18. SwatiNovember 4, 2016 at 10:22 AM

    Beautiful take on love and put in such unique way. Loved reading this piece.

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    1. Saru SinghalMarch 16, 2017 at 9:11 PM

      Thank you, Swati. It's always good to hear from you.

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  19. Amit AgarwalNovember 5, 2016 at 3:40 AM

    'I knew, you were my type! However, I was not.'
    ...loved this tragic realization!

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  20. Alka GurhaNovember 6, 2016 at 9:36 PM

    Your pen expresses love in myriad ways but always with a poetic touch.A modern Meera? Nice take.

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  21. Vishal BheerooNovember 15, 2016 at 3:44 AM

    Beautiful depiction of the modern day Meera with words that sunk into the heart. I have many such unrequited love. Some relationships are felt within and difficult to understand.

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    1. Saru SinghalMarch 16, 2017 at 9:12 PM

      True that, Vishal.Love is a complex emotion. Too difficult to understand.

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  22. SiaNovember 19, 2016 at 12:38 PM

    It touched a chord..so beautifully written!!

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  23. AnonymousNovember 30, 2016 at 4:39 AM

    Isn't it interesting that some relationships are best label less. The beauty of it lies in that only. Lovely post !

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  24. srishti saxenaApril 19, 2017 at 4:37 PM

    In a scenario where love breeds upon habitual fondness, this write up surely gives a meaningful perspective to love. True, few relationships never find a name and it's better to leave them there rather than eroding the beauty of it by trying to define it.Loved how you ended this subtle write up! :)

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    1. Saru SinghalAugust 8, 2017 at 10:02 PM

      Well said, Srishti. Enjoy what we have, and till we have it. And thank you for a generous comment :)

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  25. Vishal BheerooAugust 12, 2017 at 1:45 AM

    'I would rather live my moments of craziness than let the maturity snatch away one real happiness I have.'

    Bawri Basanti, I love this line. It says so much, everything and nothing at all. Do a book on it. Love is such a complex thing to define. Terrific.

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    1. Vishal BheerooAugust 12, 2017 at 1:46 AM

      Gosh I again commented and read it with a second eye. That's the beauty of your words.

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  26. Dr.ShaiziAugust 12, 2017 at 2:37 PM

    Dats love.. neither modern nor traditional..jst love..love where there is joy and pain both at d same time.d pain of nt being d " his type" and d joy of finding dat "missing piece"..somewhere hidden is d anxiety of dat awaited reply which wen got jst melt away all pain..all anger nd leaves u with a fresh fragrance of love.w wonderful dear Meera..jst awesome..

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